Uncertainties.... Centerties... Uncertenties

We as human beings may have felt being uncertain yet certain about many things in our lives. Love on the other hand lets you feel both at the same time. According to the dictionary, feeling opposite emotions at the same time is called Ambivalence. Nice

I am never sure about what's happening to me. But I am very much sure about the God that I am believing. I know that His plans are greater than mine and His love is enough for me. I thank God that He lets me decide and choose the right things in my life.

One truth about God that I've learned this sunday, is that, God can never out ruled you. I mean, he cannot choose for you. I thank God because He is so awesome. Being so patient to let me learn how things should turn out to be and How things are doing in my life. - I hope I didn't confuse you. LOL


Oh well, learning to let go is the hardest of the things that I've learned. But I trust God. I know by trusting Him, He'll give new strength and will open my eyes to the beauty of His plan in my life.


And morever, I've learned that I need Jesus constatntly in my life. Every minute and every second of the day, I need His overwehlming, redeeming and healing presence. :)


God bless you.

Calling to all: LOOK AT YOURSELF

I've been really wondering what have we become. What this generation have become because of the things that influences us.
I've seen the twin tower fall, the war in Iraq, the Invisible children of every nations, disaster due to climate change, death of many popular people. I've seen the change of this generation: From bad to worse.

Let me share you a Scripture found in 2 Timothy 3:1-5 "1But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. 2People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, 4treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— 5having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them." NIV

We are now living in the last days. The last days have started after Jesus' resurrection until His second comming. It's not really difficult to live as a Christian in our world today compared to the early days of Christianity where fellowships are prohibited and worshipping God was a big NO-NO to a certain land or get jailed for sharing the gospel. We are still grateful that we're living in a free country, so let's make most of our time in obeying God.

How amazing Paul have described the behavior of our society today from His letter to Timothy. Sad to say, even Christians are guilty for this. I think this is a good wake-up call to all Christians to take a look, observe and check yourselves against what Paul has written.

I know it's not easy. Change takes time but the most important thing is that status of your heart. How much you love God will determine at how much you can give your life to Him in obeying His commands and keeping yourselves pure and Holy.

God said "Ask and you shall recieve". If we ask God to change us, we must believe in Him and doubt. Trust in Him with everything and He will direct you. Rest assured that no matter what may happen, His gentle hands and His love will sustain and keep you from harm. He promises everlasting life from His son's name Jesus Christ.

Accept Him and make Him the Savior and Lord of your life and He will enter your heart and be with your forever more.(ref: John 3:16)

On the Cliff

My heart is pounding as I hurriedly climbed a steep elevation before the dawn.
The cold wind blew as I saw the sun hasn't risen yet from its sleep. I walked slowly towards the cliff facing the soon rising sun, feeling the soft and wet grassy ground that I am on.

The sea turned from dark blue to deep blue-green color as the sun rises in front of me while the wind is craftily playing my soft long black hair and my white dress dances on its music. The wind continually blows and blows as I stand patiently waiting on the approaching sun.

The sea birds fly, the sound of the sea reaches my ear like a lullaby and the warmth of the sun embraces me like it will never let me go. I smile at what beholds me at that moment. I close my eyes and smell the breeze of the ocean air - Salty yet fresh.

I looked behind my shoulder and saw a huge strong tree. I gaze back in front of me, now the light covers everything and I can fully see all the wonders that surround me. But I know something is lacking. Something is missing.

As I stood there waiting patiently, I looked down on my feet. The ground that was wet, now dry because of the sun's heat. I sat and huged my knees and drew something on the warm ground that I am on while the wind blue and the sun is on it's full light.

Are you at the same park?

I am sitting on a dark wooden bench under the big maple tree in a huge park full of walking people one cozy morning. I am reading a thick maroon Book that a good friend gave me.Every once in a while I check out on people strolling by while the gentle breeze of the morning wind touches my warm oval face and smelling the sweet fragrance of the big maple tree behind me.


Some people are busy with something or with someone but some people seem like not moving at all. I've spotted a young blond woman running towards the jampacked parking lot crying. Behind her was a young tall man trying to catch her what seems to me her cold hand but wasn't able to get it.


This park is so huge but full of people I don't know. Despite of them seemingly so tired because of walking and running, no one dares to sit by me. On my two-seater bench chair. No one even seems to bother to look at me. 

I change my gaze to the other side of the park and saw an old man smiling cunningly at what looks to me his wife. They're both sitting on a yellow table cloth under the shade of another big maple tree.


I look up and trying to see see behind the spaces of the maple leaves the blue sky and the fluffy clouds. I can hardly see the sky, so while the cool breeze of the morning wind kissing my soft cheek, I have decided to close my eyes. I wonder when will this bench be complete? Until when will I look at an empty space beside me? 


I am still holding the maroon Book in my hands and placed it close to my heart. While pondering on these thoughts, suddenly I've felt a warm water coming out of my almond shape eyes. Tears.

MOST - The Bridge

I've found this wonderful video about a man sacrificing his son for the many. This one of the greatest to interpretations of John 3:16

Enjoy the video and be touched.  

Reasons

Reasons are everywhere
We need reasons to live, have you noticed?
Reasons that we didn't even bother to look at
Until the only option is to pick it up


There are reasons why people do what they do
There are reasons why people feel what they feel
There are reasons why people cry
There are reasons why people laugh


Reason is enough to stop anyone
Reason is enough to be at the top of your game
Reason is enough to smile
Reason is enough to anger


For whatever reason you may look at it
Whatever reason you are living
One thing is for sure I know
The only reason why we are living 


Is because Jesus has every reasons to save us and let us live.

Hatred birthed War

There are two kinds of war; the one you can see and the one you don't. I've watched this generation and of our fathers who have decided to chase war.

Flying missiles, exploding bombs, wandering children, young people holding guns,mourning mothers, fathers full of anger. Betrayal, fear, hatred. When will it stop?

I'll agree with the philosophy of the protagonist in the animé manga series that I love to read. He said that there will be no real peace in the [ninja] world unless one forgives and love the other. I never thought that I can get valuable lessons in this animé.

I believe that we cannot change ourselves neither we can change others. We as humans need a much higher power and authority to have true peace. There's nothing we can do but to draw near to the One and ever living God. We can never have peace unless we will invite Jesus Christ to reign over our lives and be our Savior and Lord.

There is still hope.

I can... Yes I will

I can run and finish the race
I can jump up and down around the world
I can smile and face the heavy rain
I can, I know I've overcome

I can extend my arms
and let the heavenly hands
draw me closer to His presence
I can, I believe I can

I can and Yes I will
be the person you want me to be
I can and Yes I will
follow You moment by moment

Immovable Great Plans

Praise God for letting me finish a book this month. It was a 200(or more)-page book written by Cluade Hickan. I am so blessed at the things he shared on the book.

I am praising God because He plans ahead. Even before everything has made, He already has the blue print of every living creature/thing moving on earth.

Let me share you what I've read, and it moved me. The saddest choice that a person can do is not choosing what he thinks is right in God's eyes but practically choosing nothing. Hoping for God to give a clear answer for a destination. Though that isn't the exact words from the book but the thought is the same. We Christians should make our first step in order for us to know where God is pointing us.

We will know the direction when we're on the journey. Trusting the compass and looking on the map will help us accomplish and finish the journey.

God helps, God rewards(Hebrews 11:1), Trust Him and let Him interrupt your life. Invest on what is eternal not on the things that are temporary.

God bless!

What is the real thing about Worship?

I was talking to God early this morning. I guess that was 5:30 in the morning and the sun was already up. I read Psalm 34:8-10.

I read through from verse 1 until verse 10. This is David's Praise and Worship to God but what is the real thing behind Praise and Worship? When I started my Christian faith when I was in 4th grade(I think I was 10 then) every people that I knew at the church have that Praise and Worship idea on their mind, that it was an act of singing. Singing your heart out to God and feel His presence in the place. So this is the culture that we have at our church and as a young Christian, no one taught me that Praise and Worship is more than what we thought it could be.

I love playing guitar. My previous pastor taught me how to play this very strenuous instrument. I loved violin but guitar made it through my heart. I planned of being the best guitarist girl ever in our small town but I am too shy to show everyone that I am playing so I just kept my little talent aside and let them do their own thing. Then a very good musician came and asked me if I am interested of becoming a better guitarist - doing lead guitar. Then I thought this is the moment that I've been waiting for. I can give the best Praise and Worship to God with this. I said yes to him.

The training went on and we didn't finish the entire training course 'cause we have things to attend to. In short we got busy. Then there I am again, in a state of waiting and not giving or exerting any effort to Praise and Worship. God said in Psalm 34:9(emphasis added), "Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing. " I maybe a fearful person when it comes to everything, especially when church council is appointing you to have a new responsibility.

Ok, Fear the Lord. What does it mean? I checked out my sisters Tagalog Bible. What I've learned is that fear is related to obedience. Fear of God is not a fear like you've seen a ghost. Fear of God is like fearing someone in a higher position than you. A greater person than you. A Majestic King that is deserving of our respect, honor and obedience. When you fear God, you Obey.

So there I was sitting and still digesting what God has been telling all these years of Praising and Worshiping. My journey toward God's destination is like a funny yet very challenging. I learned many things along the way. So this one is one of those funny yet very serious Christian values that God had taught me.

Ok, setting things straight. Since I fear God and fear is equals to obeying the cultural knowledge of Praise and Worship in my head should go down 100 notches to the ocean. The singing time in our church is one of the most important thing that we have. I would like to give an emphasis on this, that singing is just ONE act of the many WORSHIP acts that we can do to the our King. Therefore, we should be seeking the real thing about PRAISE AND WORSHIP.

What is the real thing? you may ask. The real thing is you. YOURSELF. God wants you to worship Him through the way you live your life, the way you talk to other people, your relationship to your family and to your community. Your life can be a worship to God. It can give glory to His name. However, how do you live your life? Is it worth Christ dying for? do you live your life like a leaf blown and tossed by the winds.

If you want to give glory to God, then change what how you live. I love what my Pastor would always remind us. If you want change, then don't do the same stuffs all over again! and I laugh. Besides, all you have to do is to give just 1% of courage and the rest is faith. The 99% is for God.

Believe, have faith, walk on the journey that you were created for. You won't find the real essence of life if you don't follow the One who OWNS you(if you accepted Him as your Lord and Savior.)

God bless!

An Extraodinary Commitment

Last Sunday, June 7, Our pastor was preaching about Ruth's extraordinary commitment to Naomi. I've read the book of Ruth for several times now and honestly, this is the first time that I appreciate Ruth.

Though things got really tough on Naomi's family, she didn't stop at trusting God. However, what amazes me was the fact that there's a person who's willing to be with you at whatever cost, in whatever situation you maybe or at wherever place God will lead you.

Let's take a look at Ruth's declaration of her outstanding and extraordinary commitment:

^"16 But Ruth replied, "Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. ¹⁷ Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the LORD deal with me, be it ever so severely, if anything but death separates you and me." ¹⁸ When Naomi realized that Ruth was determined to go with her, she stopped urging her. " Ruth 1:16-18

I admire her commitment to Naomi even though she lost her husband, she decided to stick with her mother-in-law. For some reason she just wanted to be with her. I love it when she said "Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried." I almost cried hearing this in my heart. What a woman! She really loved her mother-in-law.

Just come to think of the fact that they will walk on an unknown journey. Not sure where God will lead them and uncertain if they will have enough food to eat or water to drink. In short, Noami is in a state of nothingness. Having nothing left behind her and a destination which she is not certain if she can accomplish or not.

But Ruth stayed with her all the way. I admire her for being such a wonderful woman. Even though she's a foreigner in Naomi's land, she embraces everything about Naomi. Her culture, her people, her way of life and most especially her God. No wonder why our very good Lord blesses her and her household ten thousand folds!

This made me think of everything Ruth had given up for Naomi. She didn't even think of going back from where she came from or I really haven't heard any complaints from her.

A commitment like hers makes God very happy. How I wish we all could have the same extraordinary commitment with God through our ministries and the things that we do for Him. Our responsibilities for our Master should always be the number one on our lists. God will bless us as we bless Him. God will raise us up 'cause He loves raising His name up by us.

May you continue walking in Faith with your full extraordinary-commitment to our One True and ever living God.

You are made to become God's worshipper

I woke up around 5:00 in the morning today(June 3) and went on to my devotion. God led me to Psalm 33:4-5 and it says:
"For the word of the Lord is right and true;
He is faithful in all he does.
The Lord loves righteousness and justice;
The earth is full of his unfailing love."

I guess my mind were not really away that time, so i read it for like five times before I saw what God wants to say about me today. I was astounded by what I've learned and realized that very moment and it gives me an indescribable feeling of happiness.

ok here we go. I know this is very grade school and I really don't mind if you find it very childlike observation. Anyways,

In verse 4, we all know that the word of God (Bible) has full of richness. It has instructions, commands from God, promises, blessings and many more. Moreover, it also says that it is right and true. If some people doesn't believe at what God is telling here then - let's stop. But it doesn't end there. King David adds on how faithful God in all He does. Does everything make sense now?

Let me rephrase the question. Is it easy now to obey God? well, God is true on every promise and blessings that He's giving us. So I guess this make our relationship to God more closer than ever.

In verse 5, this is my favorite, God loves righteousness and justice. That moment it hit me, BAM! Then I said to myself "God loves righteousness and justice". This gave me all the reasons in the world to live a righteous life. A life that is pure, noble, not compromising and not living in a double standard world.

If some people are living like one or treats you badly then it's not the reason to bounce the same attitude back to person. God gave us the reason to live life to the fullest and appreciate life through everything he has created. The earth is full of his unfailing love.

It is not half-full neither half-empty. God said it is full. This where being appreciative and being a very good steward comes in. If we can just see how marvelous everything God had created for us then I guess there wouldn't be any problems in our world today.

I am happy that I can share my devotion in here. I hope it blessed you just like what it did to me today. The bottom line of this is that we should be able to appreciate all things in our life in a way God created it purposefully. We are created to become His worshiper. God created us to give Him all the glory and praise.

If we cannot see His marvelous work, then I guess there wouldn't be any reasons for us to know Him and praise our God.

I praise God that He lets me see this. I praise God for you who read this!

God bless!

Responsibilities

In the account of creation in Genesis 1:28, God gave the first responsibilities over all God’s creation to Adam and Eve. It says in verse 28b: God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it, Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground.” This chapter talks about creation. However, what I would like to point out is that we as human beings have responsibilities about our environment and about our future generations

What we are experiencing as of the moment is the effect of what we did before, Global warming, greenhouse effect, floods, tsunamis and earthquakes. We take everything God has given us for granted. We didn’t care for our environment; we care less to what He told us to take care of.

I am not an environmentalist or a student who studies these things. I am not even close to people who went to the streets to fight for what I think is right. I am just an ordinary woman who observes and is concerned about my future children. I am a Christian woman who loves God and is very much moved about this truth that I’ve learned from Him.

I desire to let other people know about this absolute truth that comes from the Maker of everything Himself. I am appealing to everyone who can read this to change the way we live. If not, by the year 2010 some regions in the North Pole will melt what will happen after won’t be as good as what we think it is. A great part of India and the Philippines will go under water. It’s disaster coming right upon us if we don’t act on it.

When? It’s happening now. Climate change, viruses, floods. If we don’t stop conserving what we have right now, what will happen to our future generations? If we don’t stop emitting carbons what will happen to the world? The entire Philippines would go under water for real. I am not making up this blog or anything about environment. I am not giving scare to everyone. This is just awareness of what can happen if we don’t stop what we are doing. It’s 2009; we nearly have 6 months to at least make a change.

Let’s reduce, reuse, and recycle. Let’s call the attention of everyone who can understand us to help our planet, to help our future generation to live a much better life. Let’s act on the upcoming problem before it can be a big one.

I don’t need special attention on this. I am not even sure if there are reading my blog. But what I am sure is that I will make everyone know that Global Warming is real and its effect isn’t a joke for us. It’s coming and it is coming to hit us very hard that we cannot bear to survive.

God is serious when He gave His only Son for us to live and have a life. He is serious when He told Adam and Eve to take care of everything He had created magnificently. He is serious on us too. I don’t know if you believe on Him, but I do. I believe that’s why I am taking this action. This is the one thing I know I can do to help spread the news.

Now you know this, what will you do to help the earth? To help yourself? To help your future children?

It’s your choice, your calling. It’s either you act now or you act never.

God bless you!

PS

Observe what’s happening on the planet. It’s here. Everything that I’ve said here are facts. Research. Understand. ACT. NOW!

Left Behind

God is an amazing God. Many of my friends really doesn't take me seriously when I started to talk about Him. Well, what can i do? He's just part of me. Part of my everyday life.

Because God loves me so much(or what I mean was He loves Everyone, especially His children) that He wants them(or us) to learn the many good things He has for us. As one of my friends used to say that God moves in mysterious ways, Yes He does. We really don't have the slightest ideas of how God will work but if He is on the move His children will definitely know He's moving.

And I am so glad that God is moving in my life and He works magnificently on me. It's just sometimes I fail to recognize what He's trying to say to me as His child. I hate it when I overlook on things and really depends on my understanding when things in my life gets a little bit shaky and cloudy.

Yesterday was a very not-so-good day. I caught myself in a traffic jam where a 1 1/2 hour trip suddenly went to a 2 1/2 hours. The bus that I should get on that morning really just passed in front of me. I thought of running after the bus but when I saw some police enforcer then I though I guess there's another bus but I was wrong. I was late for work that day.

My day went fine. I learned many Hebrew words and I can't memorize them unless i put them into practice. Until after office I found myself on the same situation - again that night. The bus had already left and there's a huge pile of cars on the road. This situation is very tiring especially when you live in a province near the city and you can't get an apartment 'cause you're paying for your gym and you have a dog who's sick.

Well I know that God has many plans on me. I just need to be very patient. I mean to really be patient more on life, in love and with time. lol

I just can't believe that things are happening the way God planned it be. I mean God really is making sure that I understood Him.

Shadowfeet

I stumble at the many things I thought I knew best. I just found out that I am the weakest at my best.

Waking up in the morning finding your tears keeps falling because you are deeply hurt but the wound is unseen by any eyes.

I am taught to give praise to the Author of Love Himself everyday. I believe that God understands if I mourn on this. The God that I know is very forgiving and very understanding.

When you are torn between your heart and mind and you have to make a choice which one you will choose? I made a choice. A choose God over myself. I choose Him over my heart. It hurts.

Now I just forgot how to walk again after flying in the clouds. It may be a sin to fell for someone who's not the same as you but what I really don't understand is why my tears keeps falling and why it feels so depressing and extremely sad?

I know I made the right decision. I'd rather torn my heart and follow/obey God than follow what my heart is telling me which is wrong. Some people would not understand what I did. It's ok. Many will do. God will.

I have no regrets of the the many things that I did. Let me tell you what happened through this simple story: "The angel had fun with the time she spent on earth with the human. He loved her and she loved him back. But it is forbidden for an angel to fell in love with him. God will be angered by this, so what the angel did was he let the human go to live his life even though it will make her heart be broken. She wants to see him happy than to be persecuted because of defying God and the angel decided to watch over him forever"

When Love Strikes

We, as human beings are created for someone. Don't believe me? well, why don't we go down memory lane?

If you don't believe in the bible, well I don't know if you will agree with me or not but I do believe in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.

In Genesis Chapter 2, after our gracious and loving God created everything that we can see, feel and hear He created Adam - the root of all human beings. Then when God saw that he's not happy and he needs someone to be with him, He created Eve and the rest is history.

We are created out of love that is why we needed love. We are created that way. I wonder why there is a quarrel between lovers and when the moment that a partner decided to be with the other person; there are tears because the other one left.

I am a believer. I can somewhat understand the true meaning of love. The meaning of love can be found in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. If you will read it carefully, you will understand the meaning of true love and I guess there will be no person in the world who will cry because of a heartache.

.... > to be continued.... :)