Hope in Love, Love in Hope

In the fields of unfamiliar faces
You have seen me with Your amazing eyes
Strong winds may strike me at every places
and dark clouds may have covered my blue skies


I have acted differently to your love
Unclean thoughts, rebellious heart misled me
I have walked on the other path of love
Through all these You have chosen to love me


Your love is higher than the highest heights
It brings healing, contentment and success
And makes me move forward with all my might
Your love overflows, Your love is endless


I may have been an unfamiliar face
But not anymore because of Your grace

The Disturbed Spirit

There are two worlds that we are living in. If you are a christian then, this is very true to you but if you're not, maybe you won't really understand what I would like to say.

Christianity's beliefs and faith are vague from world's view. I am one happy person who loves talking. That's a fact! I love sharing those things that had happen to me to all of my friends. If you can put into words, I am as easy as ABC. I am a very oblivious person. My life is an open book to everyone. I used to be sheepish when my non-christian friends are shocked knowing that I don't have any little experience on the life that they're living.

It's stressful for me to hear that. Very painful that I compare myself to them and my spirit is disturbed knowing this. They thought that I have a very boring life and that I don't have a life itself. I contemplated on those thoughts and point of views and it's really hard to get my thoughts straight when it comes to life outside Christianity.

I may have not understood many things outside of my faith or never will I understand it at all. The disturbing part about it is that I am pushing myself to live a life like them. Live a life that is carefree and throw away what I've believed all my life.

My theory for myself is coming brighter now. That my beliefs are strong, they are solid strong! My God is a living God and everything about me comes with a purpose. What makes my spirit disturbed is myself. I am weak. Weak enough that I have been deceived, worn out and super tired of the things that are happening in my life now.

This is the most honest blog that I have ever done/wrote. Just like what I've said, I am an open book. But I put my trust to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, that He will push me, carry me and help me with all these things that I made myself.

Tell you, He won't be happy if I am thinking this about myself and I am very sorry for believing lies and for putting my self-confidence in Jesus down.

Please keep on praying for me.

God bless!

Living for Jesus

Jesus Christ is the greatest sacrifice. He is the One who redeemed us from all our sins. If He is the greatest sacrifice, that none can be much greater than Him, the things that we forsake in this world for His name isn't a sacrifice at all.

What we are doing for God, forsaking or should I say choosing God over the things that we want isn't a sacrifice. We must think and see the big picture of things that are happening around. We must be able to see what we are here for.

What we are doing for the Lord is an opportunity to give praise and glory to Him and to His name. It's a gratitude for Him who saved us from all our sins. Besides, what is it that we can best offer Him than our lives? He loves us, He redeem us. I think it's best to start walking forward to whom who's calling you.

Jesus started calling you even before you were made. It's your choice whether to answer or not. But let me say to you that, When God called you, He is calling you. His plans are much greater and much fulfilling than any kind of plans that you may have or other people may have for you. His reward is far much better than any material things here on earth.

It really pays to follow Jesus!

Immovable Great Plans

Praise God for letting me finish a book this month. It was a 200(or more)-page book written by Cluade Hickan. I am so blessed at the things he shared on the book.

I am praising God because He plans ahead. Even before everything has made, He already has the blue print of every living creature/thing moving on earth.

Let me share you what I've read, and it moved me. The saddest choice that a person can do is not choosing what he thinks is right in God's eyes but practically choosing nothing. Hoping for God to give a clear answer for a destination. Though that isn't the exact words from the book but the thought is the same. We Christians should make our first step in order for us to know where God is pointing us.

We will know the direction when we're on the journey. Trusting the compass and looking on the map will help us accomplish and finish the journey.

God helps, God rewards(Hebrews 11:1), Trust Him and let Him interrupt your life. Invest on what is eternal not on the things that are temporary.

God bless!

What is the real thing about Worship?

I was talking to God early this morning. I guess that was 5:30 in the morning and the sun was already up. I read Psalm 34:8-10.

I read through from verse 1 until verse 10. This is David's Praise and Worship to God but what is the real thing behind Praise and Worship? When I started my Christian faith when I was in 4th grade(I think I was 10 then) every people that I knew at the church have that Praise and Worship idea on their mind, that it was an act of singing. Singing your heart out to God and feel His presence in the place. So this is the culture that we have at our church and as a young Christian, no one taught me that Praise and Worship is more than what we thought it could be.

I love playing guitar. My previous pastor taught me how to play this very strenuous instrument. I loved violin but guitar made it through my heart. I planned of being the best guitarist girl ever in our small town but I am too shy to show everyone that I am playing so I just kept my little talent aside and let them do their own thing. Then a very good musician came and asked me if I am interested of becoming a better guitarist - doing lead guitar. Then I thought this is the moment that I've been waiting for. I can give the best Praise and Worship to God with this. I said yes to him.

The training went on and we didn't finish the entire training course 'cause we have things to attend to. In short we got busy. Then there I am again, in a state of waiting and not giving or exerting any effort to Praise and Worship. God said in Psalm 34:9(emphasis added), "Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing. " I maybe a fearful person when it comes to everything, especially when church council is appointing you to have a new responsibility.

Ok, Fear the Lord. What does it mean? I checked out my sisters Tagalog Bible. What I've learned is that fear is related to obedience. Fear of God is not a fear like you've seen a ghost. Fear of God is like fearing someone in a higher position than you. A greater person than you. A Majestic King that is deserving of our respect, honor and obedience. When you fear God, you Obey.

So there I was sitting and still digesting what God has been telling all these years of Praising and Worshiping. My journey toward God's destination is like a funny yet very challenging. I learned many things along the way. So this one is one of those funny yet very serious Christian values that God had taught me.

Ok, setting things straight. Since I fear God and fear is equals to obeying the cultural knowledge of Praise and Worship in my head should go down 100 notches to the ocean. The singing time in our church is one of the most important thing that we have. I would like to give an emphasis on this, that singing is just ONE act of the many WORSHIP acts that we can do to the our King. Therefore, we should be seeking the real thing about PRAISE AND WORSHIP.

What is the real thing? you may ask. The real thing is you. YOURSELF. God wants you to worship Him through the way you live your life, the way you talk to other people, your relationship to your family and to your community. Your life can be a worship to God. It can give glory to His name. However, how do you live your life? Is it worth Christ dying for? do you live your life like a leaf blown and tossed by the winds.

If you want to give glory to God, then change what how you live. I love what my Pastor would always remind us. If you want change, then don't do the same stuffs all over again! and I laugh. Besides, all you have to do is to give just 1% of courage and the rest is faith. The 99% is for God.

Believe, have faith, walk on the journey that you were created for. You won't find the real essence of life if you don't follow the One who OWNS you(if you accepted Him as your Lord and Savior.)

God bless!

An Extraodinary Commitment

Last Sunday, June 7, Our pastor was preaching about Ruth's extraordinary commitment to Naomi. I've read the book of Ruth for several times now and honestly, this is the first time that I appreciate Ruth.

Though things got really tough on Naomi's family, she didn't stop at trusting God. However, what amazes me was the fact that there's a person who's willing to be with you at whatever cost, in whatever situation you maybe or at wherever place God will lead you.

Let's take a look at Ruth's declaration of her outstanding and extraordinary commitment:

^"16 But Ruth replied, "Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. ¹⁷ Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the LORD deal with me, be it ever so severely, if anything but death separates you and me." ¹⁸ When Naomi realized that Ruth was determined to go with her, she stopped urging her. " Ruth 1:16-18

I admire her commitment to Naomi even though she lost her husband, she decided to stick with her mother-in-law. For some reason she just wanted to be with her. I love it when she said "Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried." I almost cried hearing this in my heart. What a woman! She really loved her mother-in-law.

Just come to think of the fact that they will walk on an unknown journey. Not sure where God will lead them and uncertain if they will have enough food to eat or water to drink. In short, Noami is in a state of nothingness. Having nothing left behind her and a destination which she is not certain if she can accomplish or not.

But Ruth stayed with her all the way. I admire her for being such a wonderful woman. Even though she's a foreigner in Naomi's land, she embraces everything about Naomi. Her culture, her people, her way of life and most especially her God. No wonder why our very good Lord blesses her and her household ten thousand folds!

This made me think of everything Ruth had given up for Naomi. She didn't even think of going back from where she came from or I really haven't heard any complaints from her.

A commitment like hers makes God very happy. How I wish we all could have the same extraordinary commitment with God through our ministries and the things that we do for Him. Our responsibilities for our Master should always be the number one on our lists. God will bless us as we bless Him. God will raise us up 'cause He loves raising His name up by us.

May you continue walking in Faith with your full extraordinary-commitment to our One True and ever living God.