Streams

It was windy that afternoon. The sun was on its caressing time. The wind blew softly while my hair dances on its music. The blue birds chirping and the soft soothing sound from the stream by me. I guess i was heading south when I saw a big grayish stone sitting right beside the stream.

I sat on the big grayish stone and my feet reaches the refreshing cold water from the stream. I saw small fish swimming by, I gave them small grin knowing that they see me. The entire stream was covered with green grass, different kinds of tall trees bearing fruits, flowers of many kinds and birds flying across the big blue sky. It was perfect. It was peaceful.

My feet suddenly felt so cold with the water running by. I gently lifted my feet close to myself and hugged them. The water was cold and the scenery was so serene at the moment but something was missing. I looked down on the freezing cold water and saw my wobbling image. 

I lift my head up towards the sky. The air smells fresh while wind gently touches my face. I close my eyes. I hear nothing but the chirping of the birds, and the humming of the freezing cold stream below me. I am in the most serene place I could be. Alone.

The Lost Generation

PS. Thanks to eridhan for this...

Lost Generation by Jonathan Reed

I am part of a lost generation

and I refuse to believe that

I can change the world

I realize this may be a shock but

“Happiness comes from within.”

is a lie, and

“Money will make me happy.”

So in 30 years I will tell my children

they are not the most important thing in my life

My employer will know that

I have my priorities straight because

work

is more important than

family

I tell you this

Once upon a time

Families stayed together

but this will not be true in my era

This is a quick fix society

Experts tell me

30 years from now, I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce

I do not concede that

I will live in a country of my own making

In the future

Environmental destruction will be the norm

No longer can it be said that

My peers and I care about this earth

It will be evident that

My generation is apathetic and lethargic

It is foolish to presume that

There is hope.

And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it .

Instruction: Read it and read it again in reverse ( from the bottom up)

The Invisible Children

This is one encouraging film. Let's thank God that we are fortunate to live in a much comfortable life that we can have. I pray that many will be known through this little act of kindness by the 3 wonderful dude. God bless you.

Here but not here, close but not close

When I was a young girl, I love to be with other children of my age and play with them until we all get tired of playing all sorts of play that we can ever think of and until our mothers are screaming for our name in anger looking for us. It was fun.

I grew up in a place full of happy playing children until one day, we have to move out of the house that we're living in to transfer to a new place I've never been to. That was the first time that 'hurting' came into my heart. That was the first time I've felt so hurt for some reason I don't know.

And I guess this is the very reason why I have a low tolerance to pain. I want to see happy faces. I can't stand loneliness, sadness most especially pain.


Friends. I need my friends and I need them here. Seeing or knowing my very closest friends leaving me behind is something hard for me to take. I know as a friend I should be happy for them, however the largest part of my heart is crying because another friend will leave. 


I am happy that all of my friends or should I say, those who are so dearly close to my heart are reaching their dreams. Seriously, I am happy and I know that you'll be back, it's just I can't help but to get sad because your presence will be missed so much by me.

Living the Vegan life

I've started to live my vegan life two months ago - August 28, 2009 to be exact. My life has never been so amusing and so light since then.

It wasn't really that tough to become a vegetarian. Let me just clear that there are reasons why I've decided to stop eating meat. My reasons aren't as deep as the deepest ocean. Well it's very simple- I love animals and I am against to those people who are abusing them by getting their meat, skin, fur and everything else.

Since I am an not eating meat, except for fish, my body feels so light. In fact, I lose a lot of weight because of being a vegan. 

Every time I eat meat I really don't feel good after. I feel so nauseatic and kinda dizzy. But all in all, being a vegan is living a healthy normal life.

My mother always remind me to eat a balance diet. Since she's a nutritionist and my mother most and foremost I must follow her. So I did and it helped me a lot in losing tremendous amount of weight in just a week. 


That's how my vegan life is. I can't go further for the details since time doesn't permit me, but i will in the future.

On the Cliff

My heart is pounding as I hurriedly climbed a steep elevation before the dawn.
The cold wind blew as I saw the sun hasn't risen yet from its sleep. I walked slowly towards the cliff facing the soon rising sun, feeling the soft and wet grassy ground that I am on.

The sea turned from dark blue to deep blue-green color as the sun rises in front of me while the wind is craftily playing my soft long black hair and my white dress dances on its music. The wind continually blows and blows as I stand patiently waiting on the approaching sun.

The sea birds fly, the sound of the sea reaches my ear like a lullaby and the warmth of the sun embraces me like it will never let me go. I smile at what beholds me at that moment. I close my eyes and smell the breeze of the ocean air - Salty yet fresh.

I looked behind my shoulder and saw a huge strong tree. I gaze back in front of me, now the light covers everything and I can fully see all the wonders that surround me. But I know something is lacking. Something is missing.

As I stood there waiting patiently, I looked down on my feet. The ground that was wet, now dry because of the sun's heat. I sat and huged my knees and drew something on the warm ground that I am on while the wind blue and the sun is on it's full light.

Are you at the same park?

I am sitting on a dark wooden bench under the big maple tree in a huge park full of walking people one cozy morning. I am reading a thick maroon Book that a good friend gave me.Every once in a while I check out on people strolling by while the gentle breeze of the morning wind touches my warm oval face and smelling the sweet fragrance of the big maple tree behind me.


Some people are busy with something or with someone but some people seem like not moving at all. I've spotted a young blond woman running towards the jampacked parking lot crying. Behind her was a young tall man trying to catch her what seems to me her cold hand but wasn't able to get it.


This park is so huge but full of people I don't know. Despite of them seemingly so tired because of walking and running, no one dares to sit by me. On my two-seater bench chair. No one even seems to bother to look at me. 

I change my gaze to the other side of the park and saw an old man smiling cunningly at what looks to me his wife. They're both sitting on a yellow table cloth under the shade of another big maple tree.


I look up and trying to see see behind the spaces of the maple leaves the blue sky and the fluffy clouds. I can hardly see the sky, so while the cool breeze of the morning wind kissing my soft cheek, I have decided to close my eyes. I wonder when will this bench be complete? Until when will I look at an empty space beside me? 


I am still holding the maroon Book in my hands and placed it close to my heart. While pondering on these thoughts, suddenly I've felt a warm water coming out of my almond shape eyes. Tears.

Reasons

Reasons are everywhere
We need reasons to live, have you noticed?
Reasons that we didn't even bother to look at
Until the only option is to pick it up


There are reasons why people do what they do
There are reasons why people feel what they feel
There are reasons why people cry
There are reasons why people laugh


Reason is enough to stop anyone
Reason is enough to be at the top of your game
Reason is enough to smile
Reason is enough to anger


For whatever reason you may look at it
Whatever reason you are living
One thing is for sure I know
The only reason why we are living 


Is because Jesus has every reasons to save us and let us live.

Hope in Love, Love in Hope

In the fields of unfamiliar faces
You have seen me with Your amazing eyes
Strong winds may strike me at every places
and dark clouds may have covered my blue skies


I have acted differently to your love
Unclean thoughts, rebellious heart misled me
I have walked on the other path of love
Through all these You have chosen to love me


Your love is higher than the highest heights
It brings healing, contentment and success
And makes me move forward with all my might
Your love overflows, Your love is endless


I may have been an unfamiliar face
But not anymore because of Your grace

A day in the raging storm

When will begin to care?
Until when will I care?
Should I cease from caring?
When I look back none do really care about me?


Do I have to continue to love?
Or do I need love itself?
Should I leer for it in an empty space?
When I fully understand where it can only be found?

Cease or not to cease
Love or not to love
None can really fathom me
Because none have decided to seek my heart.

That day

I dream that someday
someone will give flowers to me
I dream that someday
someone will offer a cup of coffee to me



I dream that someday
I'll have someone to laugh with
I dream that someday
I'll have someone to share my life with


That dream may come true
and that dream may be today

Or tomorrow

I'll just let the sun shines
and moon fall
Until that day.. until that day

Hatred birthed War

There are two kinds of war; the one you can see and the one you don't. I've watched this generation and of our fathers who have decided to chase war.

Flying missiles, exploding bombs, wandering children, young people holding guns,mourning mothers, fathers full of anger. Betrayal, fear, hatred. When will it stop?

I'll agree with the philosophy of the protagonist in the animé manga series that I love to read. He said that there will be no real peace in the [ninja] world unless one forgives and love the other. I never thought that I can get valuable lessons in this animé.

I believe that we cannot change ourselves neither we can change others. We as humans need a much higher power and authority to have true peace. There's nothing we can do but to draw near to the One and ever living God. We can never have peace unless we will invite Jesus Christ to reign over our lives and be our Savior and Lord.

There is still hope.

I can... Yes I will

I can run and finish the race
I can jump up and down around the world
I can smile and face the heavy rain
I can, I know I've overcome

I can extend my arms
and let the heavenly hands
draw me closer to His presence
I can, I believe I can

I can and Yes I will
be the person you want me to be
I can and Yes I will
follow You moment by moment

The Holiness Ladder

I really never been able to read the bible(entirely), but thank God our church made its way of really encouraging us to read it page by page.

Truly enough the Word of God is alive and is moving to those who are reading them. I am on my journey in the book of Leviticus 22. It touches me how God made us holy because He is holy himself.

I must admit living a holy life isn't that easy, however according to Philippians 4:13 says: "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength", yes indeed, we Christians are able to do it; We just have to make sure what tools to use to fight for the battle. :)

Many people have asked me, why I haven't considered anyone in my life. Well, the answer is simple. I am waiting. I am holy waiting for the right man to come for it is good in the sight of God.

Never let your guard down. Keep on doing what God is telling you to do! Keep His word in your heart and you will live. God bless.

The Disturbed Spirit

There are two worlds that we are living in. If you are a christian then, this is very true to you but if you're not, maybe you won't really understand what I would like to say.

Christianity's beliefs and faith are vague from world's view. I am one happy person who loves talking. That's a fact! I love sharing those things that had happen to me to all of my friends. If you can put into words, I am as easy as ABC. I am a very oblivious person. My life is an open book to everyone. I used to be sheepish when my non-christian friends are shocked knowing that I don't have any little experience on the life that they're living.

It's stressful for me to hear that. Very painful that I compare myself to them and my spirit is disturbed knowing this. They thought that I have a very boring life and that I don't have a life itself. I contemplated on those thoughts and point of views and it's really hard to get my thoughts straight when it comes to life outside Christianity.

I may have not understood many things outside of my faith or never will I understand it at all. The disturbing part about it is that I am pushing myself to live a life like them. Live a life that is carefree and throw away what I've believed all my life.

My theory for myself is coming brighter now. That my beliefs are strong, they are solid strong! My God is a living God and everything about me comes with a purpose. What makes my spirit disturbed is myself. I am weak. Weak enough that I have been deceived, worn out and super tired of the things that are happening in my life now.

This is the most honest blog that I have ever done/wrote. Just like what I've said, I am an open book. But I put my trust to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, that He will push me, carry me and help me with all these things that I made myself.

Tell you, He won't be happy if I am thinking this about myself and I am very sorry for believing lies and for putting my self-confidence in Jesus down.

Please keep on praying for me.

God bless!

Living for Jesus

Jesus Christ is the greatest sacrifice. He is the One who redeemed us from all our sins. If He is the greatest sacrifice, that none can be much greater than Him, the things that we forsake in this world for His name isn't a sacrifice at all.

What we are doing for God, forsaking or should I say choosing God over the things that we want isn't a sacrifice. We must think and see the big picture of things that are happening around. We must be able to see what we are here for.

What we are doing for the Lord is an opportunity to give praise and glory to Him and to His name. It's a gratitude for Him who saved us from all our sins. Besides, what is it that we can best offer Him than our lives? He loves us, He redeem us. I think it's best to start walking forward to whom who's calling you.

Jesus started calling you even before you were made. It's your choice whether to answer or not. But let me say to you that, When God called you, He is calling you. His plans are much greater and much fulfilling than any kind of plans that you may have or other people may have for you. His reward is far much better than any material things here on earth.

It really pays to follow Jesus!

Immovable Great Plans

Praise God for letting me finish a book this month. It was a 200(or more)-page book written by Cluade Hickan. I am so blessed at the things he shared on the book.

I am praising God because He plans ahead. Even before everything has made, He already has the blue print of every living creature/thing moving on earth.

Let me share you what I've read, and it moved me. The saddest choice that a person can do is not choosing what he thinks is right in God's eyes but practically choosing nothing. Hoping for God to give a clear answer for a destination. Though that isn't the exact words from the book but the thought is the same. We Christians should make our first step in order for us to know where God is pointing us.

We will know the direction when we're on the journey. Trusting the compass and looking on the map will help us accomplish and finish the journey.

God helps, God rewards(Hebrews 11:1), Trust Him and let Him interrupt your life. Invest on what is eternal not on the things that are temporary.

God bless!

What is the real thing about Worship?

I was talking to God early this morning. I guess that was 5:30 in the morning and the sun was already up. I read Psalm 34:8-10.

I read through from verse 1 until verse 10. This is David's Praise and Worship to God but what is the real thing behind Praise and Worship? When I started my Christian faith when I was in 4th grade(I think I was 10 then) every people that I knew at the church have that Praise and Worship idea on their mind, that it was an act of singing. Singing your heart out to God and feel His presence in the place. So this is the culture that we have at our church and as a young Christian, no one taught me that Praise and Worship is more than what we thought it could be.

I love playing guitar. My previous pastor taught me how to play this very strenuous instrument. I loved violin but guitar made it through my heart. I planned of being the best guitarist girl ever in our small town but I am too shy to show everyone that I am playing so I just kept my little talent aside and let them do their own thing. Then a very good musician came and asked me if I am interested of becoming a better guitarist - doing lead guitar. Then I thought this is the moment that I've been waiting for. I can give the best Praise and Worship to God with this. I said yes to him.

The training went on and we didn't finish the entire training course 'cause we have things to attend to. In short we got busy. Then there I am again, in a state of waiting and not giving or exerting any effort to Praise and Worship. God said in Psalm 34:9(emphasis added), "Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing. " I maybe a fearful person when it comes to everything, especially when church council is appointing you to have a new responsibility.

Ok, Fear the Lord. What does it mean? I checked out my sisters Tagalog Bible. What I've learned is that fear is related to obedience. Fear of God is not a fear like you've seen a ghost. Fear of God is like fearing someone in a higher position than you. A greater person than you. A Majestic King that is deserving of our respect, honor and obedience. When you fear God, you Obey.

So there I was sitting and still digesting what God has been telling all these years of Praising and Worshiping. My journey toward God's destination is like a funny yet very challenging. I learned many things along the way. So this one is one of those funny yet very serious Christian values that God had taught me.

Ok, setting things straight. Since I fear God and fear is equals to obeying the cultural knowledge of Praise and Worship in my head should go down 100 notches to the ocean. The singing time in our church is one of the most important thing that we have. I would like to give an emphasis on this, that singing is just ONE act of the many WORSHIP acts that we can do to the our King. Therefore, we should be seeking the real thing about PRAISE AND WORSHIP.

What is the real thing? you may ask. The real thing is you. YOURSELF. God wants you to worship Him through the way you live your life, the way you talk to other people, your relationship to your family and to your community. Your life can be a worship to God. It can give glory to His name. However, how do you live your life? Is it worth Christ dying for? do you live your life like a leaf blown and tossed by the winds.

If you want to give glory to God, then change what how you live. I love what my Pastor would always remind us. If you want change, then don't do the same stuffs all over again! and I laugh. Besides, all you have to do is to give just 1% of courage and the rest is faith. The 99% is for God.

Believe, have faith, walk on the journey that you were created for. You won't find the real essence of life if you don't follow the One who OWNS you(if you accepted Him as your Lord and Savior.)

God bless!

An Extraodinary Commitment

Last Sunday, June 7, Our pastor was preaching about Ruth's extraordinary commitment to Naomi. I've read the book of Ruth for several times now and honestly, this is the first time that I appreciate Ruth.

Though things got really tough on Naomi's family, she didn't stop at trusting God. However, what amazes me was the fact that there's a person who's willing to be with you at whatever cost, in whatever situation you maybe or at wherever place God will lead you.

Let's take a look at Ruth's declaration of her outstanding and extraordinary commitment:

^"16 But Ruth replied, "Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. ¹⁷ Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the LORD deal with me, be it ever so severely, if anything but death separates you and me." ¹⁸ When Naomi realized that Ruth was determined to go with her, she stopped urging her. " Ruth 1:16-18

I admire her commitment to Naomi even though she lost her husband, she decided to stick with her mother-in-law. For some reason she just wanted to be with her. I love it when she said "Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried." I almost cried hearing this in my heart. What a woman! She really loved her mother-in-law.

Just come to think of the fact that they will walk on an unknown journey. Not sure where God will lead them and uncertain if they will have enough food to eat or water to drink. In short, Noami is in a state of nothingness. Having nothing left behind her and a destination which she is not certain if she can accomplish or not.

But Ruth stayed with her all the way. I admire her for being such a wonderful woman. Even though she's a foreigner in Naomi's land, she embraces everything about Naomi. Her culture, her people, her way of life and most especially her God. No wonder why our very good Lord blesses her and her household ten thousand folds!

This made me think of everything Ruth had given up for Naomi. She didn't even think of going back from where she came from or I really haven't heard any complaints from her.

A commitment like hers makes God very happy. How I wish we all could have the same extraordinary commitment with God through our ministries and the things that we do for Him. Our responsibilities for our Master should always be the number one on our lists. God will bless us as we bless Him. God will raise us up 'cause He loves raising His name up by us.

May you continue walking in Faith with your full extraordinary-commitment to our One True and ever living God.

You are made to become God's worshipper

I woke up around 5:00 in the morning today(June 3) and went on to my devotion. God led me to Psalm 33:4-5 and it says:
"For the word of the Lord is right and true;
He is faithful in all he does.
The Lord loves righteousness and justice;
The earth is full of his unfailing love."

I guess my mind were not really away that time, so i read it for like five times before I saw what God wants to say about me today. I was astounded by what I've learned and realized that very moment and it gives me an indescribable feeling of happiness.

ok here we go. I know this is very grade school and I really don't mind if you find it very childlike observation. Anyways,

In verse 4, we all know that the word of God (Bible) has full of richness. It has instructions, commands from God, promises, blessings and many more. Moreover, it also says that it is right and true. If some people doesn't believe at what God is telling here then - let's stop. But it doesn't end there. King David adds on how faithful God in all He does. Does everything make sense now?

Let me rephrase the question. Is it easy now to obey God? well, God is true on every promise and blessings that He's giving us. So I guess this make our relationship to God more closer than ever.

In verse 5, this is my favorite, God loves righteousness and justice. That moment it hit me, BAM! Then I said to myself "God loves righteousness and justice". This gave me all the reasons in the world to live a righteous life. A life that is pure, noble, not compromising and not living in a double standard world.

If some people are living like one or treats you badly then it's not the reason to bounce the same attitude back to person. God gave us the reason to live life to the fullest and appreciate life through everything he has created. The earth is full of his unfailing love.

It is not half-full neither half-empty. God said it is full. This where being appreciative and being a very good steward comes in. If we can just see how marvelous everything God had created for us then I guess there wouldn't be any problems in our world today.

I am happy that I can share my devotion in here. I hope it blessed you just like what it did to me today. The bottom line of this is that we should be able to appreciate all things in our life in a way God created it purposefully. We are created to become His worshiper. God created us to give Him all the glory and praise.

If we cannot see His marvelous work, then I guess there wouldn't be any reasons for us to know Him and praise our God.

I praise God that He lets me see this. I praise God for you who read this!

God bless!