On the Cliff

My heart is pounding as I hurriedly climbed a steep elevation before the dawn.
The cold wind blew as I saw the sun hasn't risen yet from its sleep. I walked slowly towards the cliff facing the soon rising sun, feeling the soft and wet grassy ground that I am on.

The sea turned from dark blue to deep blue-green color as the sun rises in front of me while the wind is craftily playing my soft long black hair and my white dress dances on its music. The wind continually blows and blows as I stand patiently waiting on the approaching sun.

The sea birds fly, the sound of the sea reaches my ear like a lullaby and the warmth of the sun embraces me like it will never let me go. I smile at what beholds me at that moment. I close my eyes and smell the breeze of the ocean air - Salty yet fresh.

I looked behind my shoulder and saw a huge strong tree. I gaze back in front of me, now the light covers everything and I can fully see all the wonders that surround me. But I know something is lacking. Something is missing.

As I stood there waiting patiently, I looked down on my feet. The ground that was wet, now dry because of the sun's heat. I sat and huged my knees and drew something on the warm ground that I am on while the wind blue and the sun is on it's full light.

Are you at the same park?

I am sitting on a dark wooden bench under the big maple tree in a huge park full of walking people one cozy morning. I am reading a thick maroon Book that a good friend gave me.Every once in a while I check out on people strolling by while the gentle breeze of the morning wind touches my warm oval face and smelling the sweet fragrance of the big maple tree behind me.


Some people are busy with something or with someone but some people seem like not moving at all. I've spotted a young blond woman running towards the jampacked parking lot crying. Behind her was a young tall man trying to catch her what seems to me her cold hand but wasn't able to get it.


This park is so huge but full of people I don't know. Despite of them seemingly so tired because of walking and running, no one dares to sit by me. On my two-seater bench chair. No one even seems to bother to look at me. 

I change my gaze to the other side of the park and saw an old man smiling cunningly at what looks to me his wife. They're both sitting on a yellow table cloth under the shade of another big maple tree.


I look up and trying to see see behind the spaces of the maple leaves the blue sky and the fluffy clouds. I can hardly see the sky, so while the cool breeze of the morning wind kissing my soft cheek, I have decided to close my eyes. I wonder when will this bench be complete? Until when will I look at an empty space beside me? 


I am still holding the maroon Book in my hands and placed it close to my heart. While pondering on these thoughts, suddenly I've felt a warm water coming out of my almond shape eyes. Tears.

Left Behind

God is an amazing God. Many of my friends really doesn't take me seriously when I started to talk about Him. Well, what can i do? He's just part of me. Part of my everyday life.

Because God loves me so much(or what I mean was He loves Everyone, especially His children) that He wants them(or us) to learn the many good things He has for us. As one of my friends used to say that God moves in mysterious ways, Yes He does. We really don't have the slightest ideas of how God will work but if He is on the move His children will definitely know He's moving.

And I am so glad that God is moving in my life and He works magnificently on me. It's just sometimes I fail to recognize what He's trying to say to me as His child. I hate it when I overlook on things and really depends on my understanding when things in my life gets a little bit shaky and cloudy.

Yesterday was a very not-so-good day. I caught myself in a traffic jam where a 1 1/2 hour trip suddenly went to a 2 1/2 hours. The bus that I should get on that morning really just passed in front of me. I thought of running after the bus but when I saw some police enforcer then I though I guess there's another bus but I was wrong. I was late for work that day.

My day went fine. I learned many Hebrew words and I can't memorize them unless i put them into practice. Until after office I found myself on the same situation - again that night. The bus had already left and there's a huge pile of cars on the road. This situation is very tiring especially when you live in a province near the city and you can't get an apartment 'cause you're paying for your gym and you have a dog who's sick.

Well I know that God has many plans on me. I just need to be very patient. I mean to really be patient more on life, in love and with time. lol

I just can't believe that things are happening the way God planned it be. I mean God really is making sure that I understood Him.