Born For This

Fear. I have a lot of those. 

It started with comparing myself to others.

Others are highly logical, artistic, etc. Others are just way better than I am.

Over time, it affects me. So, I ignored.

Ignoring this little fear and insecurities birthed a gigantic bad character.

I started doubting my capabilities, talents, and skills.

I self-pity, treated myself not worth of anything higher than I thought.

I deprived myself of goodness and love from others.

I never let myself see the beauty of living a victorious life because of fear and insecurities.

So now it stopped. Fear and insecurities will now stop.

I will not make myself feel low because of others -- which I feel inferior to-- to affect the beauty and happiness I should feel.

I will not let the enemy steal my victory by inflicting fear and insecurities.

I know it's not going to be easy but I have God who will enable me to do things according to His will.

I can do this. I can make it. I am victorious.

Alaala

Naalala kong mahal kita

naalala ko kung paano ang maging masaya

naalala kong pangarap kita

naalala ka ng puso ko, hanggang ngayon

Nandito, nadoon

Ganun kalayo

ikaw, ako, tayo

ganun kalabo

Araw at Buwan

Liwanag at Dilim

Ganung 'di magtagpo

Langit at lupa

parehong di natin abot

Mananatili ang alaala mo

sa puso kong di makalimot

sa alaala mong nagiwan ng malalim na tanda

Alaala ikaw hindi ng isip

Ngunit ng pusong nagparaya sa 'yo

Alalahanin mo ako

Alalahanin mo tayo

kahit sa alaala lang.... tayo

How to be a successful person

I may be the laziest person in the entire universe living today and I don't have the credibility to ever suggest how to become a successful person but I wanted to change that.

Well, according to the book that I am reading (see for review: Leadership isn't for cowards) well, what you are doing (mostly) in a day that's what your heart's desire (well, I may be wrong in remembering it. But at least that's what struck me :) )

Anyhow, I am really am so tired of my life full of disappointments, blame, and what else? hatred? oh well name all the negative adjectives, I believe I have them in my checklist.

So, I know that change is not as easy as what Michael Jackson's song A-B-C-1-2-3, but I know I have to do something for me to become a successful one. 

Well, I have to identify the things that causes trouble in my life. If I can't identify it -- I'll ask my friends if they have (troubles) issues with me, then at least that will able me to see the other side of the coin.

Okay, here are my issues  in life: (well, if my parents will ever read this post, OKAY.)

1. LAZINESS - in all forms (YES I HAVE THEM)  

2. CONFIDENCE - I don't have them

3. INSECURITIES - Yep. I am insecure hehe

4. TOO GENTLE to a fault - yes I am.

5. TOO SENSITIVE to be INSENSITIVE

Now, the next step here is to identify specifically what I am talking about above. (Well, I have to know what's causing each and every issues in my life) and be able to provide sound solution that follows S.M.A.R.T.

1. Laziness 

    Who are not? I believe the best word for me when it comes to laziness is procrastination. Yes I do -- I procrastinate things that I think are not "fun" or difficult (for me) or something that I don't simply like doing. I put them aside. For some reason, TV entertains me. Talking entertains me. Having fun entertains me. I love doing all the fun things -- if you'll notice these are the things that doesn't need for me to think or give solutions to. Basically, I love things that won't require critical thinking or giving solutions too (especially if it requires mathematical skills). I don't hate math, I hate the fact that I am solving a problem. Math is cool.

Solution:

I believe, I am too fool of myself. I think that I am too weak to be able to push myself to become better. It's not that bad to use my brain cells for once in a while. Besides, I am in a very difficult world that requires all my left-side brain. I am taking my masters, I am a leader in the Church, I am a manager. I should have a strong, clear head.

Changing my perspective in my life should be a great help especially when I am giving in to my procrastination. 

Also, I have to decide what are the things that are important to me. I have to set my priorities straight. I fail to identify them (actually I have not! I just identified and prioritized the wrong things)

to be continued....

Current MBA Status

I am 3 terms away to STRAMA!

Me and my twin brother

this is me and my twin

Like it? lol

My Bucket List 2012 4th Quarter

Okay, what's in my bucket list for the last Quarter.. hmm

1. Pass my subjects this term

2. To run 180 km/hr

3. Ice skating

4. Read the New Testament

5. To be 120 lbs

6. To get back again in Sports

....

so far.. that's it.....

Growth Indicators

GBCC Sunday Worship Service

September 23, 2012

In all that God has done for us, how can we respond in a way that is leasing to Him?

Whom will we conform?

Which Pattern to follow? God's or worlds?

I. Change of Position (vs. 1-2)

Because of God's mercy, God is willing to forgive all our sins.

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world

What are the practical way to change of position?

When you accepted Christ as Lord and Savior, you should be able to change the position of your life.

It must be according to the principles of God through the Bible.

It must me in the position of God's.

What's your position?

What are the practical way to change of position?

1. Remember Your Identity v.1

     a. Uniqueness, Distinctiveness

     b. Living Sacrifices

:. All of the things that we are doing must be used / done for the glory of God.

2. Recognize your limitations V.2a - Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world,

    a. Lifestyle different from what the world dictates 

    b. Live as citizen of the future world (heaven)

    c. Life's transformation begins with the way think

The transformation of our life begins when we change the way we think

3. Realize Your Purpose - v.2b 

    a. To please God, to give glory to Him

    b. The tool we use to know His purpose is the Word of God

II. Change of Perception - vs. 3-5

    a. Right Measurement v3

        .The key to an honest and accurate evaluation is knowing the basis of our self-worth - our identity in Christ -- 

         . Apart from Jesus Christ, we cannot do anything.

         . Evaluating yourself by the worldly standards of success and achievement can cause you to think too much about your 

            worth in the eyes of others and thus miss your true value in God's eyes -- We must evaluate ourselves according to 

            God's standard.

         . Neither and inflated ego nor a deflated person is free to obey.

    b. Right Motivation v. 4

         . Understand how the church operates or functions

         . Each one has special function different from each other

         . Understand that not everyone has the same gifts nor all the gifts

         The church operates as one body. 

    c.  Right Mindset v. 5

        . Understand your value to the church and to each other (as part of the body)

        . Humbly recognize our partnership in the body of Christ

        . Only then can our gifts be used effectively, and only then can we appreciate other's gifts.

       We humbly submit to each others.

III. Change of Performance (vs 6-8) -  We have different gifts

     a. Gifts are for each member of the body of Christ

         . Speaking or Serving

     b. Gifts are given for Church growth - cf. Ephesians 4:11-12

         . Gifts fulfill their value as they are utilized for the benefit of others or the church

     c. Gifts are for using not for having

         . The list of gift is representative not exhaustive

         . It would be difficult for one person to embody all these gifts

         . An assertive prophet usually would not make a good counselor, and a generous giver might fail as a leader

God design all the Christian churches to succeed and not to fail.

TAO LANG AKO

Ito ang kauna-unahang tagalog blog ko. Sinadya kong gawin ito sa wikang mas komportable akong gamitin.
Napakahirap para sa aking tanggapin ang mga hindi magagandang bagay na ginagawa sa akin ng mga taong tinuring kong kaibigan at kapamilya.
Mahirap pero sa "Corporate" na mundo madaming ganito. Tama sigurong sabihin na ako ay isang "naive"  kung baga sa english o walang masyadong karanasan sa mga pangyayari sa mundong ito.

Minsan gusto kong magtanong sa Diyos kung bakit ako ay naririto sa lugar ko ngayon bilang isang tiga-pamahala ng isang dayuhan ngunit pilipinong kompanya.
Hindi ko din mai-alis sa aking isipan ang madami kong pagkukulang sa mga nakalipas na buwan at madalas kong maisip ang isuko nalang ang lahat at magbitiw sa aking puwesto.
Naiisip kong magbitiw sa madaming kadahilanan ngunit sa tuwing pinapaalala sa akin ng napakabuting Diyos na mayroon akong "purpose" kung bakit ako andito ngayon.

Nais kong sumuko dahil sa tingin ko, wala na akong nagawang mabuti at lahat ay maituturing na palpak. Anumang gawin ko, hindi tama sa panagin ng aking pinakamamahal amo.

Ako ay nagpapasalamat dahil ang Diyos ay hindi ako iniwan. Salamat sa kanya dahil sa tuwing mahirap ang gawain, at talagang mahirap para sa akin, meron akong tulong na natatanggap mula sa mga taong nakapaligid sa kin. At mula kay Katherina na aking "immediate" na amo.

Hindi naman ako nangangamba dahil ang lahat ng ito ay para sa aking ikabubuti. Tama ang si Katherina, ako ay tao lang. Gagawin ang lahat ng makakaya ko upang sa ikagaganda at ikalalago ng kompanya, ngayon, kung sa tingin ng madami ay hindi maganda -- ang sa akin ay ginawa ako sa tingin ko ay tama at maninindigan ako sa tama at sa Panginoon.

Purhin ang Panginoon dahil pwede akong pasalamatan at purihin sya sa mga ganitong pangyayari sa aking buhay. Salamat sa Diyos.

I Did My Best But I guess My Best Wasn't Good Enough

It's a song. A song for those people who:
* Did their best in their exams but failed
* Almost yes but she said no
* and whatever events in your life that you failed.

For me, it's my MBA exams...

Okay that's a very lame excuse.

The End in Mind

Have you ever felt that feeling that you don't know what you are doing and what you want to do in life? Have you ever felt so lost in your career?

Well, that's what I am feeling at the moment. A friend of mine said that to go to where my strengths are. -- I have given that a thought. 

Is it stupid to ever think of something that I would love to do? So let's begin at the end.

Now, How do I see myself in 20 years? the Answer: Owning a growing restaurant.

Okay.. that's cool but my second question is, is that what I would like to put up? lol but all I know is that I would like to put up a family business that all my family members will be joining and we will grow it.

Until next blog!

What the ?!?!?!

So, Whatever happens to me in the past months and years? It has been so looong ago.

But I am back doing blogging. 

So here it is..

One, I am frustrated that I couldn't talk to anyone about what I am feeling, and sometimes I want to care what I will say but I couldn't help it. LOL

SO what do I want to say? Well something like I want to do something but I am too lazy to do it! LAME right?

So what to do? What to do?????

Setting Priorities

Please be reminded that I am writing this at almost 2 am. So, prolly you'll see some typos and grammatically wrong sentences. Please bear with me :)


So, Priorities -- this is kinda what makes a childish person mature (at least i think so). Well in my so many years of working, I've come to this conclusion: That I don't know how to prioritize my many things in life.


Just to list all of the things that I need to do for a week or a month look at this(in random order):
* Church - Planning, Ministry Practices, Etc
* Family - Doing Houshold Chores, spending Q-Time with them
* School - Attending my classes, and doing assignments
* Work - Working -- of course
* Social Life - Hanging out with friends. Plus I believe in "All work, No play makes Mignonette Joy a sad girl" quote
* Businesses - I am starting up my first and second business


And most of the time, balancing them wasn't that easy as I thought. And I admit that I am having problems balancing them at the moment. Now that I am taking a much bigger responsibilities at Church and at Work. T_T


However, I believe that God has placed me on this position and gave me these responsibilities, so I should be a good steward of these talents and opportunities that I should give back to others....


Okay, I couldn't write anymore, So, I got to go now.


I just hope that you are reading my blog-- as in really reading it...

I took the Elevator going to 29th Floor

This is an impromptu blog. Please all the typos, wrong grammar, or misaligned thoughts are still here. 


Expectations. Inspiration. Better person.

I've been with KMC MAG Group for more or less 4 months. It has been one roller coaster ride for me. Imagine being a normal SEO employee that becomes a Team Leader of 8 wonderful OJTs and became an SEO Specialist didn't start as smooth as I expected it to be.

I know that the SEO that I know isn't the best SEO in the world. In fact there are many SEO people whose expertise are way so better than mine. I started rough but ended smoothly at KMC MAG Group and KMC Solutions. I am unaware of the SEO industry and what its capabilities and benefits -- All i know is that I know how to link build as long as there is an instruction from my superior. But leading a department felt like I am forced in that kind of maturity of a manager which I needed sometime to understand and learn.

I admit, I have made mistakes. Have been waywardly going after my own agendas and getting out of focus in my work however, it made me realize many things.

This experience made me understand and see how a small company is running. How each individual is essential to the growth of a growing company. How one must be reliable at all times with work that was given to him. Every decision should have a good sounding judgement before doing. That I must think first before telling or saying something , whether in correction or by just having fun. I also learned that a manager should value his / her employees for them to stay and to keep satisfied.

I am like a wrong piece jigsaw puzzle at KMC MAG. I am not fitted in their puzzle. However, I believe that I have become part even though I am really not.

I am inspired by Mike at how he manages well his people and on how he treated them like they are not their employees but someone of his same level.

I know that KMC is just starting, i believe that someday you'll grow and when that time comes, do not forget me.

Reading Plan: Day 4

Genesis 4:6-7

6 “Why are you so angry?” the LORD asked Cain. “Why do you look so dejected?

Think:"How do you react when someone suggests you have done something wrong? Do you move to correct the mistake or deny that you need to correct it? After Cain's gift was rejected, God have him the chance to right his wrong and try again. But Cain refused. The next time someone suggests you are wrong, take an honest look at yourself and choose God's way instead of Cain's."

Keep Breaking The Ice

There are so much that I want to say
and I could keep on until the end of the day
Stop dealing things on your own
and start doing what you are saying

I don't want to rain on your parade
I don't want to ruin what you have started
I am afraid to get hurt to
But I will keep breaking the ice to reach you.

There are so many things that we have missed
we have chosen not to be together

For some reason I don't know what to say just to update this blog. Hmm say I ran out of topic :)

But I would like hmm I'll post something more sensible next time ahahahaha! 

At the moment... I would just like to say Hi! :)

26 Quotable Quotes from my 26 fave People

Check these out! :) hope you'll find laughter in it! LOL in random order. According sa memory ko.

1. "Sabihin mo lang ang kailangan mo. Ibibigay ko sa iyo" - PAPA JOSEPH

2. "Si Joy di yan maarte. Kahit ano sinusuot basta kelangan kahit sira na" - MAMA VERONICA
  2.a "Princess Joy, Princess Jackie. Matulog na kayo. Matutulog na si Queen   Veronica. King Joseph, tara na!" - LOL at talagang merong 2.a! ahahaha

3. "Ang love parang damit. Pag nakita mo na yung gusto mo, wag mo nang bibitawan. Dahil kapag ginawa mo yun at na realize mo yun pala ang gusto mo - malulungkot ka lang" Lola ni Nica Ellazar

4. "Napaka Photogenic mo!" - ATE JACKIE

5. "Wag kang ganun ate! Dapat hayaan mong mag text sya sa yo!" - BABY BROTHER RALPH

6. "No matter how difficult the class is, don't give up! Think about the day of your graduation" Professor Susan De Jesus (My FINACC professor)
  Room 211: "I hope you continue to bond together .......and you did a great work! Congratulations"- Mrs. Rex
     Room 211.a: "I was really wondering who the screenwriter and the director was... and it was you Joy! 
                            Congratulations"

7. "Aww... aww... aw..... aw... awwww!" - ZORRO (my beloved son -- A dog)

8. "You are full of surprises!" - Mikki Klein

9.  "Na-expire ang infatuation ko sa kanya!" - Eridhan Estira (bwahahaha)
  9.a "What can't kill you make you strong" hehe

10.  "Kaya mo yan!" - ALL OF YOU!

11.  "Di ka na magkaka boyfriend nyan! Nag wo-work ka, meron kang Church tapos ngayon mag MBA ka pa! Wala ka nang social life!" - Melani Ladios- Cruz
   
12.  "The man who will love you must love you as a whole -- regardless of your weight and how you look!" Ptr. Renzy Punzalan

13.  "Hold your horses .... " Gracia Imperial

14. "You are my 10 Core Values.... The movie is about us.. it is us... Congratulations!" Ma. Patricia Ramos
      Section 13. "Ang hot mo joy!" Erwin Maat - Lam nyo na kung baket ganun! ahahahaha


15. " Do which ever you think is right. But do due diligence before making a decision." - Maki Macariola


16. "You are crazy.. I am crazy... and we are the Crazy girls!" - Claire Liu


17. "You and Claire are intelligent. You can do it!" - John Roque a.k.a Sean John Li

18. "Ayaw kong kausap si wowo! English ng English eh! Wala naman sila dito sa MERIKA eh!" - SAM (niece, talking to my sister, and my sister told me)

19. "Thank you ate Joy! ...... Kaya ka nga kita Ate!" Jemimah Grace Almadrones

20. "Naku, para kang isa item na naka display sa eskaparate sa isang mamahaling store dahil ng MBA ka..... MABEBENTA KA NA!" - Kuya memen! ahaha (buy me ah! LOL)

21. "We will invade the maple country soon!" - Karen Diana

22. "Ako naman ang itreat nyo. May mga trabaho na kayo.." Tito Paye

23. "For I know the plans I have for you.... plans to prosper and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future" - God (Jeremiah 29:11)


24. "Dadating din yun! Antayin mo lang" - Rachelle Perete

25. "Ano? mahirap no? ganun talaga. Bayaan mo pag gumraduate ka na.. Atenista ka na!" - Ma'am Resty Aldana

26. "I will never leave you nor forsake you." - God (Hebrews 13:5)


These are the wonderful quotable quotes that I can remember so far.. :) Thank you all for being part of my life and I am looking forward for more wonderful years!


It's really a fun 25 years with you!

26 Thoughts about my 26 years

These are my 26 Thoughts about my 26 years......

1. Thou shalt not cry when you can't have what you want - sometimes you just don't have money! Save up little girl

2. School isn't an exciting place to play! You should know that it's where you must behave and listen to your teacher! 

3. Friends love at all times. That's why you love staying outside and play with them and when you get back home, tadah! You will get a spank to your mother for staying out too late!

4. No matter how high you post your letter to Santa on Christmas eve, you won't get the present you wished receiving on Christmas because you should know that Santa doesn't exist. BUT your parents do! LOL

5. Tuxedo Mask is a manga. Stop loving him!

6. Vincent probably is the cutest boy in class. Don't be too shy to be friends with him. Hey! Dennis is right over there at the corner. You might want to say hi too.

7. Don't expect when you transfer school things will be different. But expect to have great friendships there!

8. Your first love is dancing. CULTURAL DANCING!

9. And your second love is BASKETBALL and Vince Hizon and Andreneil Vibar and Panday Pira and..........! ahaha

10. Alright, you've discovered that your BARKADA needs to have a name. And you just knew what it is. it's ABOT! ABNORMAL na OTISTIK pa. hehe

11. Beware of the people you eat your lunch with! They will never leave you... ever! Congratulations for more than a decade of building friendship!

12. Don't be too confused about your personality. You have to accept that you're just tooooooooooooo talkative.

13. Alright, kids in first year thinks like they're in Sweet Valley High except you! Kasi you think nasa R.L Stein series ka! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

14. You can have a bestfriend even if you don't have communication at all.

15. Math is never your forte. DANCING NGA EH! KULET!

16. Being too nice isn't fun sometimes. Go ahead. CUT ka lang ng class. Just make sure RECESS NYU! ahahaha

17. When you want to become successful -- FOCUS! (Sir Abuda. High School Basketball Coach -- who cut me off sa list ng varsity player sa school. NO hard feelings sir! Oks lang!)

18. You will discover your "magic hands" in baking and cooking! thanks to your loving mother! ang pagiging corni mo ay galing sa iyong papa joseph! lol

19. Always remember na hindi lahat ng maputing gwapo at maskulado ay lalake!

20. Ang unang magiging crush mo sa first work mo ay isang badash. Take note, gwapong badang!

21. Don't let others look down on you. Let those people you love tell you how blessed they are with you in their lives. They are the people you should always be with!

22. Hindi lahat ng guys dapat maging sweet ka. Minsan hindi sila deserving!

23. May talent ka sa pag-sulat. Kaya magsulat ka minsan.

24. Akala mo madaling mag MBA. Hindi! Madali lang yan with God and of course with friends who will fly with you along your journey! - Thank you guys! You know who you are!

25. I have the best friends... ever! If you are my friend, be proud because you are the best!

26. The Lord is counting our years! Welcome the the 26th Rotary CLUB! bwahahaha



aaaah! Can't believe that I am 26! But I embracing this new life God has given me! Looking forward for more meaningful and life-changing events in my life! Truly the Lord is good and His love endures forever! :)

Thank you all for flying with me!

Until my wings rest.. we will continue to reach our goals! I'll be with you too guys!

Mignonette Joy V. Gozarin
...Peachy Margarette Sue Younghusband
...Princess Joy of Wales
...Perla Ligaya Gozarin

P.S
Madaya ang FB for not letting me change my name! hmp! lol

PANDA: The google's Wackiest Update -- Ever!

To all who are SEO savvy people out there! Hey have you heard that Google has made a notorious change in their search algorithm? and this is the the toughest whack in most of the "not so quality websites" also known as the "content farms". Well yeah, you heard it right FARMS!

Google is trying to eliminate SPAM in their search results and giving the best quality websites to give to their users. PANDA or Farmer has been created to eliminate the "content farms".

Let's be honest, as users of the latest computer-noun today, we don't want don't want to be victimized by those nasty spam that sometimes can cause us  harm (because most of these spams contain viruses, malwares to hack identities -- I don't want that! Do you?)

The brightest engineers of google have created wonderful tactics to put these content farms down and to penalize those websites who are doing illegal SEO activities (black hat and grey hats.. you know them!)

The impact of this update is like Armageddon! A huge meteor hits the world and cause a huge, un-imagined destruction! But online, it's a subtle destruction if you don't know how to use SEO tools of course. And if you are just a plain google user, you wouldn't recognize the effect at all!

For webmasters, try to run your SEO tools now and check if you've been affected by this change. You know your tools, your tolls, your traffic is telling you. If you've seen a huge downfall of traffic... sad to-say, work on with your SEO! Try newer tactics. Make it friendlier to the user and to google!

Google has become a powerful form of media. In fact, it has become a verb! If you want to survive and have a good money flowing, then follow them! Here are the latest updates: Make sure that your site is a quality site: quality contents, quality descriptions. Make sure that you don't run around the bushes and make fire! Because definitely they are seeing you and may penalize you for that. Remember their rules are the 10 commandments of Internet today! 

These are just some of the tidbit tips that I can tell you today. Heads up! Heads up! Panda 2.0 is coming in no time! Brace yourself!

MYRA

For our final project in Business Communication, Mrs. Rex told us to create something that would incorporate these 10 Core Values:

* Accountability and Responsible Citizenship

* Loyalty and Promise Keeping

* Honesty and Integrity

* Caring and Respect for others

* Fairness and Equality

Our class president would want to break the habit of submitting a boring interview with executives and all. So, the class have agreed to create a movie.

In short, I was appointed to lead the class for making this movie a reality. It wasn't that easy to make a movie there are so many things I need to prepare before hand. Below are the things that I've done in making this project,

* Research

* Create

* Execute

Since I don't know how to create a screenplay, I've researched on it. How to do it and what to write. Once I am done, I started creating my master piece. The story title hasn't been final until after the last shooting day. I executed what I've created after many revisions and additions it has became final and we started shooting.

Shooting isn't as easy as I thought. As the project director and writer, it is my responsibility to make sure for our shooting location. This is one of our biggest dilemma. We don't have a place to shoot our movie aside from the school. Thank heavens that AGSB is kind enough to grant our abrupt, last-minute request to use facilities in 5 - Saturdays.

What I've learned during the making of the film is that you must be cool at all times, no matter what happens. 

Aside from being cool no matter what, to avoid confusion among your group mates: Prepare the necessary things that you will use ahead. Scout for location, ask for reservation, know the availability of your co-workers and most especially, make sure that they know what they are doing.

I am blessed to have a very helpful, understanding and cool group mates! They are ready whatever you need in the script/scene.

Also, for the post production, you must scout which reliable editing firm or company to fully furnish your wonderful masterpiece.

One setback I've made was not to be strong enough and brave enough to share responsibilities with others. I have fears of rejection and failure. I am not saying that they cannot do the task but not reaching the goal is what I am scared of.

One great lesson I've learned is that to become yourself and let others help you. That it is fun not to force others to be great.

Doing this project is one of my milestone. I have dreamed of directing a screenplay one day, and I never imagined I will direct my own screenplay. I thank God for this wonderful opportunity that I've shared with my classmates what I can do. 

I hope that I became a blessing to them.

I am hoping that my professor, Mrs. Adelina Rex would love the film.