Tuesday, May 18, 2010

A Rollercoaster

Things have been like a roller coasterIt's one challenging ride that one can ever ride to
There are ups, there are slopes, there are highs and there are lows
It always move, it runs on a track and always back to square 1 
But everytime it goes back, it unloads and riding new class of people

Life is like a roller coaster
You may experience the same thing but never with the same person
Like a roller coaster 
It has highs and lows, slopes, steeps and falls
But in ever lows it always get its momentum to get high after that steep fall.


Never think of yourself in any way less than you are
God doesn't want you to think that way.
Endure the pain, expect the excitements and thrills
Get back up and start moving
You can always get your momentum in God.



P.S


I just want to write. I mean to do a freestyle poem writing... :) however.... I know everyone can understsand what I am trying to say here.. :)

Monday, May 17, 2010

3 Minutes

What will you do with the last 3 minutes of your life?


"I am so sorry, I couldn't help you" an american soldier told a guy with a high quality bomb locked in his body. "Please, help me" He said in a heart breaking tone one could ever hear. The american soldier, with pale blue eyes took his bomb-proof helmet off and tried to diffuse the bomb in the poor man's body. "What's your name?" the american soldier asked "Roberto" he said in a very scary shaky tone. "I am Jesse."


Roberto's shaking as he is kneeling in a dusty gound. In front of him is a pile of square vertical metal gears which the amercans are using to protect themselves in any danger. To his left a middle-rise building. He looked up and see there are still people curiously peeking at what may seem to be a playground to them. To his right another building which has been abandoned. At his back, Jesse, the american tryinig to keep him alive. He looked up in the clear sky. He was amazed by what he just saw. A clear blue sky and the cool breeze of the wind. This should've been his perfect day. He looked at his chest and it just turned 4:00 and now decreasing. "Jesse, we're down to less than four minutes." He gasped for air. It suddenly became heavy; the wind, the situation the clock ticking. "My friend, i think it's time to go. It's 3:30 seconds", "No, I can handle this Roberto!", "I know, but I can't let you be in this. You're still young and has so many opportunities that are waiting for you. Don't end your life with me. I am old enough to make this sacrfice for my people and to yours. You may go now." He said. He pants. "Are you sure Roberto?", "Yes" He answered looking down. Tears fell on his face to the dusty ground.  He made a silent prayer to God, "Dear Jesus, I've made tons of mistakes in my entire life and never do anything that you want me to do. Now that I am in this situation, my very good and last wake up call, I am not worth of any forgiveness and your love. From the bottom of my heart, may I ask for this last request, to make this timer stop for a minute until I finished what I'll share to everyone. Amen"  he swallow a great amount of air and it filled his lungs.


He stood up looking at the dusty ground. He looked around, looking intently on every person's eyes he can see. He looked at the timer on his chest. It has stopped. He began talking. "Listen those who have ears. The God of all. The God of the earth. The God who made everything possible. The God who created each and everyone of us. The God of my life. My God loves you all. He made the biggest sacrifice of all that no one can ever fathom. The son that he loves the most, His one and only son suffered greatly because of our sins. How God loved us so much that He lets His son die for the salvation of all. I am a sinner. A person who's clean can throw me stones right now. All of us sins and must die and go to hell. But God loves us all that's why He gave us a second chance. Repent and accept His Son, Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior to be saved." He looked at the clock on his chest and the clock start ticking. "You can follow me in this prayer. God, I know I've sinned and I am sorry. I cannot save myself, you can only save me. I am accepting you as my Lord and Saviour of my life...." He looked at the clock and it said ten seconds. "begin reigning over me. Change my life. Direct my path! Write my name in the lambs book of life.... AM----" A deafening explosion was heard all over the place. Debris of rocks, sand and othe un-noticeable things flew in the air. 
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Jesse stood in amazement at the scenery. A huge dome-like hole has been created by the explosion. Amazingly everything seems normal except for that hole. It's as if like something's covering Roberto that protects everyone around him. Tears are falling from Jesse's beautiful eyes. He doesn't know why but he earnestly prayed the prayer that Roberto had said. He knew that something happened to him that day. He just can't identfy what.....

Friday, May 14, 2010

The Sun that Always Shines


One early morning in a beautiful lagoon, my father and I rode our 2-seater old mahogany boat. We both love our early morning sails; the fresh cold winds on our faces, the icy-cold water that splashes on my face while my father tries to control the boat when it wiggles. We don't do fishing when we go out. We just hang out and watch the beautiful sun rises above the sky, giving him every light that he has to the earth to show God's majestic power. My father wouldn't allow me to hold the oars because he's afraid that my hands would get hurt. Funny, but all those time I thought that he just wouldn't let me. We were on the boad, him beside me as we watch the sun slowly rises above the sky. It was the most beautiful thing that my eyes have seen in my life. I saw how the everything lightens up and suddenly became really beautiful in my eyes. In my amazement, I looked at my father's old-aged face. He was smiling. His blue eyes reflects the sun, so peaceful. I smiled at him and he looked, smiled back at me. He tapped my head and said "like the sun, I will do everything and will give everything for you to shine and be beautiful as what you've seen here. To protect you and be sure of your future. With the best of my ability I will do it, I promise, cricket!" Then he hugged me oh so tightly. I saw my father's eyes rolled tears. I don't have any idea what he has said but I might understood the emotions he's trying to show. He loves me so much. I embraced him tightly too and said close to his ear "Daddy If there's one wish that God would ask me, I'll ask him to not let the sun down." My heart thumped and my eyes suddenly shed tears. I saw the big white seagull's flying, the pack of deers coming out from the bushes, the strong huge trees in the forrest and it's mouthwatering fruits, the cute colorful butterflies flying around the beautiful little flowers all in different hues in the field; heaven. I might be in heaven i thuoght. There's nothing in this world I could ask for more but this. I prayed to God earnestly to not let the time pass. That my father would always be like this forever. As my prayer flew in the heavens, as everything grows majestically in every place, so as my father and I. We hugged each other as long as we can.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Sail On

It's enough
Tell yourself it's enough
Stop crying
Now start smiling


Open your eyes
and see the beauty
of the things you've missed 
and the things you're still missing


It isn't the end yet
It isn't your final test
Now gather yourself for this

The strong wind has arrived
and it's taking you away
it's moving you away you belong

The sun will shine for you
He will help you be strong
So take up courage to finnally move on
Sail on.....

Monday, May 3, 2010

The Sun Sets

The sun is setting. I am sitting on soft sands in the shores of an unknown beach. It is one of the seasons that I love. I just love it when seasons keep on changing. I love the process of changing and not the changing itself. This season; it is summer going fall. The wind isn’t too much cold. I could say that things are normal for me.


I am sitting watching the sun set minute every minute. I couldn’t forget this day; the day of my freedom; the day that I finally break free. I don’t want to end this day but it has to be. Tomorrow’s another day, another milestone. I carefully breathe in the heavy wind for the coming season. The cold breeze of wind is blowing my hair everywhere. I really don’t care how I looked like, all I want is to stay here, sit here all I want. I slouched digging my fingers in the soft cool-warm sands. Amazing! I can finally think straight. I can finally say plan my life properly. Amazing!


I look at the right side of the beach, there are people playing in the waves; A cute little girl with bright curly brunette hair and pale green eyes caught my attention. She looks so happy with what seems to me her father. I smile at this scene. There’s a little pain in my heart whenever I think of family. After what had happened to me, having a family of my own is quite blurry to me. I feel a little envious for them because they are happy. However I know I shouldn’t be. That is wrong. I just smile. Keep on smiling until the pain goes away. The father seems to notice my observation so I just look on the other side of the beach however nothing is there to see so I just watch the sun set on his own beautifully.


Alone. How long will I be alone? Maybe I am created to live alone. If that so, I must plan my life on my own. I breathe in heavily. Pain comes back. I breathe in and take a few seconds before I breathe out. My eyes become heavy and it feels like my eyes want to cry but I manage not to. I am done crying. I am so done at being feeling broken; At feeling lonely; At feeling alone.

The sun keeps on setting. The father and child seems to be done playing and is about to go home now. They are so happy. However they seem to be just to be two. Her mother should be at home waiting for them. How perfect this scenery is. If only I have my Polaroid with me. I embrace my knees to hold myself for another gushing of pain.


So I keep on sitting on the beautiful beach watching the beautiful sun to set. Everything seems to be orange now. It is getting dark. I keep on sitting, wishing that all the pain that remains will go away with the hard winds. I wish that after this day everything will become brand new.

I am breaking up into pieces again but not to become lonely. I am breaking up into pieces only to put together again correctly. I keep on hugging my knees. The wind is starting to get colder now than half an hour ago. I grow smaller and smaller in the greatness and in the beauty of this beach. A tear fell on my right cheeks. This will be the last shedding of tears. I promise myself.