Left Behind

God is an amazing God. Many of my friends really doesn't take me seriously when I started to talk about Him. Well, what can i do? He's just part of me. Part of my everyday life.

Because God loves me so much(or what I mean was He loves Everyone, especially His children) that He wants them(or us) to learn the many good things He has for us. As one of my friends used to say that God moves in mysterious ways, Yes He does. We really don't have the slightest ideas of how God will work but if He is on the move His children will definitely know He's moving.

And I am so glad that God is moving in my life and He works magnificently on me. It's just sometimes I fail to recognize what He's trying to say to me as His child. I hate it when I overlook on things and really depends on my understanding when things in my life gets a little bit shaky and cloudy.

Yesterday was a very not-so-good day. I caught myself in a traffic jam where a 1 1/2 hour trip suddenly went to a 2 1/2 hours. The bus that I should get on that morning really just passed in front of me. I thought of running after the bus but when I saw some police enforcer then I though I guess there's another bus but I was wrong. I was late for work that day.

My day went fine. I learned many Hebrew words and I can't memorize them unless i put them into practice. Until after office I found myself on the same situation - again that night. The bus had already left and there's a huge pile of cars on the road. This situation is very tiring especially when you live in a province near the city and you can't get an apartment 'cause you're paying for your gym and you have a dog who's sick.

Well I know that God has many plans on me. I just need to be very patient. I mean to really be patient more on life, in love and with time. lol

I just can't believe that things are happening the way God planned it be. I mean God really is making sure that I understood Him.

To Him Over there who Made me Aware of Somedays

There's nothing I coud ask God now but healing.
Healing for a broken self that I couldn't fix.

Hoping that someday God will find a heart for us.
And that someday it won't be just a dream to look forward to.

Oh you know how much I feel for you,
It is strong enough to break my walls and do everything that i can to be there caus I fall for you.

Miles away we maybe
And that I acccidentally gave my heart to you.

Awesome we may feel for each other but i have to make a decision.
Even though what we have means everything to me

Sorry to let you go but i have to do it.
The God and Jesus that I know is different from yours.
You are important to me but I love Him too.
So I'll follow who saved my life for I know I'll find another heart there with Him.
Hopefully it's yours.

Shadowfeet

I stumble at the many things I thought I knew best. I just found out that I am the weakest at my best.

Waking up in the morning finding your tears keeps falling because you are deeply hurt but the wound is unseen by any eyes.

I am taught to give praise to the Author of Love Himself everyday. I believe that God understands if I mourn on this. The God that I know is very forgiving and very understanding.

When you are torn between your heart and mind and you have to make a choice which one you will choose? I made a choice. A choose God over myself. I choose Him over my heart. It hurts.

Now I just forgot how to walk again after flying in the clouds. It may be a sin to fell for someone who's not the same as you but what I really don't understand is why my tears keeps falling and why it feels so depressing and extremely sad?

I know I made the right decision. I'd rather torn my heart and follow/obey God than follow what my heart is telling me which is wrong. Some people would not understand what I did. It's ok. Many will do. God will.

I have no regrets of the the many things that I did. Let me tell you what happened through this simple story: "The angel had fun with the time she spent on earth with the human. He loved her and she loved him back. But it is forbidden for an angel to fell in love with him. God will be angered by this, so what the angel did was he let the human go to live his life even though it will make her heart be broken. She wants to see him happy than to be persecuted because of defying God and the angel decided to watch over him forever"

When Love Strikes

We, as human beings are created for someone. Don't believe me? well, why don't we go down memory lane?

If you don't believe in the bible, well I don't know if you will agree with me or not but I do believe in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.

In Genesis Chapter 2, after our gracious and loving God created everything that we can see, feel and hear He created Adam - the root of all human beings. Then when God saw that he's not happy and he needs someone to be with him, He created Eve and the rest is history.

We are created out of love that is why we needed love. We are created that way. I wonder why there is a quarrel between lovers and when the moment that a partner decided to be with the other person; there are tears because the other one left.

I am a believer. I can somewhat understand the true meaning of love. The meaning of love can be found in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. If you will read it carefully, you will understand the meaning of true love and I guess there will be no person in the world who will cry because of a heartache.

.... > to be continued.... :)